Friday, July 29, 2016

WHAT’S A STANDARD?

After different weird thoughts and thinking I’ve been doing in the past days, I have figured out that we think in a “standard” way. At least the majority of us do it, even unconsciously.

This way of thinking to me is weird, because the things considered “standard” and “normal” are for the major part OVERRATED nowadays.
For example sexuality and what you’re supposed to like, what music you should listen to, how you should dress, what you should study and eventually what career you are going to pursue.

It’s not true that if you’re gay everyone will mock you for your entire life.
It’s not true that if you’re tattooed you’ll never find a job.
It’s not true that if you like metal music you are a murderer or a bad person.
It’s not true that if you love art you won’t make a living out of that.

Obviously all the life-choices listed above require a strong will to keep being yourself and not caring of other people opinions. And this is an important requirement because there’s still a “stigma” around the topics written above.


An in 21st Century this is just bullshit to me.


ILA

Thursday, July 28, 2016

Nevermind

I surely have had better days. Where mental sanity looked concrete. But I’m not the type of person that cries often, at least not anymore.
I’ve been really busy between work and trying not to explode with the creative madness that has hit me recently so violently. I constantly feel the need of making something and keeping me busy (on a creative level).

I feel like everything is trying to assault me, but I’m not even close to fear. I’m more intrigued by all of this noise around me.
Everything keeps me busy.

Probably I’m just trying not to overthink about my past. Or probably I just need all this noise to keep moving. Like a machine, a complicated engine. I’m not even close to break down.  Luckily I have a lot of things to do and to think about rather than my own concerns or issues.
The majority will say that pursuing this way is useless and it won’t help me, but I’m convinced that projecting your issues on something outside yourself helps you to actually understand yourself.
It’s like an overall look at it.
Detached. Rational. Probably helpful.


I don’t know shit about psychology but I’m interested in all the weirdness that a single mind can handle. Starting from my own.


ILA


P.S. Oh anyway, I have a twitter now. Basically I'm keeping myself even more busy by keeping tracks of my favorite bands/actors. 

Friday, July 15, 2016

It's ok



It's ok to be confused, to question ourselves and what surrounds us. 
It's ok to live day by day without a plan.
It's ok not knowing what we'll do "when we'll get old".

It's ok simply because nothing is simple in life and nothing is already predicted. You can give yourself some time to think and understand yourself.

But don't push yourself to do something just because it's "late". 
What does "late" means? Late for what?

Taking your time doesn't mean doing anything. Probably it means the exact opposite: it means doing a little bit of everything.
Only by doing so, you'll understand what you like and dislike.

But until that moment... keep your mind wide open.

ila

Friday, July 8, 2016

WRITER’S BLOCK

It’s been really a long time since I posted something. But before I explain why I didn’t post  I’d like to tell you about a really upsetting event that happened yesterday: I felt the will to study.
Yeah, pretty upsetting isn’t it? You would have never expected something like this, me neither. But it was weird. I opened my Italian literature book and I started reading, and I liked it!

So, at midnight, I closed the book and started thinking: why do the same things I do at school interest me more when I’m far away from school?
I came to the conclusion that is the “spirit” of school that kills (literally) my will to study.
The anxiety of tests, the constant worry about the deadlines, homeworks and anxiety, anxiety, ANXIETY.

I think this is the problem: we are always worried for what other people expect us to do. Obviously in our life there are deadlines and rules that have to be respected, even if the majority of them are just trivial and useless. Ok, I went for a tangent.
The point is that we are more worried about what we SHOULD do than what we WANT to do.
Here it is: I WANTED to study and read and I liked it! So we should (and I say it more to myself than to you) WANTING to do something rather than HAVING to do something for someone else.

What does it have to do with my blog? Well guys, this should also be a pointless post as far as I’m concerned. But it is really not my style.
This post makes me think about my lack of posting lately: I didn’t know what other people wanted me to write here. But again, if I think about it: I am the one who decides here and I don’t have to restrain myself from writing something rather than something else.

I don’t want to give this blog a neat cut. I should write whatever I feel confident to write. I want to leave me all the options opened and not just focus on one particular topic since in my everyday-life I’m not interested in a single topic either!

Ok, I’m done with the rant.

Ona  positive note the sky was really beautiful this evening.